Posted in career, Life, Music, Work

“It’s Never Quite as it Seems”

As I sit here reading Chelsea Handler books, I realize I’m a straight up loser sitting in on a Friday night and not going out. Well not really that, I feel more like a loser because no one responds to my emails. And that my friend said to me he wants to “rent” my N64 games from me, instead of actually inviting me over to play. That’s straight up loser status.

But enough about me whining about how pathetic I am, I’m starting to lose my creativity. Because I haven’t been writing songs, I haven’t been going out, and my blogs are pretty pathetic. I really hope I get some inspiration soon, because I’m about to go nuts.

It doesn’t help, that people don’t return my calls or e-mails or the fact that I’ve been turned down from every job since September.

Then I remembered, that the holidays are coming up. People are busy. And the world does not revolve around me. Thank god it doesn’t, because I don’t want that much attention.

In other news: Happy Birthday Keith Richards!

Posted in career, Love, Music, Uncategorized

My Birthday:What I’ve Learned

Yesterday was  my birthday. Yes, I am a year older. Yes, I have more wrinkles and more cellulite. The joys of getting older. And I still don’t have a roadie job lined up for next year. But as I went to McKay’s today to look through thousands of discounted books, I realized, I may not be where I want to be right now, but I’m constantly trying to work on making myself better.

I work out, read, continue to reach out to those who know more than me, and most importantly, trying to do whatever I can to be the best person I can be.

And so here is my promise to myself:

To continue to work on getting on the road

To always look on the bright side of things

To make sure the people that are important to me get my attention and the attention they deserve

But most importantly,I want to stay true to myself and always believe in myself

I never thought I would post a Justin Bieber song, but this is brilliant! #loveyourself

Posted in career, Love, Music, Patience, Work Hard

What The Hell Am I Doing?

I’m currently sitting at Denver airport… to go to Florida. What the hell, am I gong all the way to Denver to go to Florida?

Seriously? I have to go half way across the country to go all the way down to the other side of the country? That seems a little backwards to me, if you know what I mean.

But here’s why I’m doing it. So I can  see my family, for free. Yes for free. My mom used to work for the airline so we had some extra benefits rollover.

Here’s the thing about anything that comes for free or for cheap. Most of the time, it’s not worth it. I recently got a haircut, for a very cheap price. And it is by far the worst haircut, I’ve ever received in my entire life. How bad? I asked for a trim, and the woman gave me a Pauly D cut.

My point: I think the reason why the music industry is so hard to get into it, because you have to work really hard for your career and passion. Nothing good in life is cheap, free and easy to come by.

So I’ll take the lower paying jobs, and the long hours and the hard work, because I know it will pay off.

 

Posted in Friends, Friendship, Music, Nashville, Work, Work Hard

Don’t fall into the Deep End

The music industry is hard to get into. Guy or girl. You really need to have a personality, a good work ethic and great skill set. Unfortunately, majority of people can be really rude, so there goes one third of them. Unfortunately again, majority of people my generation feel that should have things handed to them. So again there goes another one third of the people. Then there are the people with skills. I would say another one third of the people don’t possess this.

So if you are good at math, you would need to know that even if you have two out the three, there’s a good chance you won’t get the job. The one I would say you could get away with is a crappy personality, because let’s face it, if you shut up and get the job done, that’s really all that matters.

So with that being said, I hate to compare my personal and professional life. But it is true, I’m starting to look at friends like they are clients. And if friends aren’t awesome, won’t put in the effort to create a great friendship and don’t utilize their strengths and put them to good use, I feel that makes you a very lazy friend.

My point is: No matter what in life, treat people the way you want to be treated. Work really hard at anything you do in life. And always remember good things come with time.

Posted in Music

Not Your Typical Girl

It is CMA week here in Nashville. Basically, another reason for everyone to get really, really drunk. And of course, to celebrate the talented musicians that roam the lovely 615.

However, there’s been something bothering me, and I finally can address it as an issue. I get that I’m a girl, with blonde hair and blue eyes, but that does mean I don’t know what I’m doing and that I’m stupid. To me, that’s worst than being sexist, you are literally judging me based on how I look. Just about every meeting that I’ve had, everyone that I’ve talked to. Everyone has told me, that I will have a harder time because I’m “pretty with blonde hair blue eyes.” To be honest, I don’t even know what the hell that means.

But then I watched the CMAs tonight, and I saw that Chris Stapleton stole the night. Not your typical, really good looking, pop country artist out there. But his music is fantastic and according to the rest of the world, everyone else agrees with me. So what does that mean for me, it means that I have a chance to make it as a production person in the music world, even if I don’t “look” like your typical girl working backstage.

Posted in Music

Stop Judging Music

Music, what exactly is it?

Is it just a bunch of noise, or is it a pattern of some sort?
What do you consider music? Is it the rhythms and notes, or
the melody and lyrics?

We can all be music snobs in our own way. I like to think I am myself. But with that being said, we need to get our head out of our a** and look the hell around.

Just because we don’t like something, doesn’t mean it’s not quality. For example, I can’t stand opera. Mostly because my mom use to wake me up on a Saturday morning blasting opera.

The lord could have killed me if he wanted to, but nope, I had to listen to it on blast until I woke up. As I got older, I started to “appreciate it”, I know it’s good music and beautiful music. But no one in the right mind will get me to an opera.

What’s my point: stop judging Kesha, Rhianna and all these other pop stars. Because they are making way more money than you anyway.

Posted in Life, Music, Nashville

Rockstars Are People Too

I really hate the stereotype of musicians and the rockstar lifestyle. It’s not true at all. Believe me, their lives are not as glamorous as you think it is.

Yesterday I walked into a bar with a couple of friends for Sunday Funday. Low behold, guess who walks in. Miranda Lambert. And after all the controversy that has been going on with her, I’m sure she just wants to be surrounded by good friends,people and beer.

And of course what happens, she is swarmed by 10,000 guys trying to hit on her. She literally just wants a beer and to be left the hell alone. Naturally, she dipped out in the back way to escape the horror.

But seriously, when you are going through a hard time, all you want is comfort and support. But once you have made it in the big leagues, your normal life disappears.

Please tell me, when you are feeling alone, scared, vulnerable, you want to be swamped with paparazzi cameras staring at you like mosquitos… I didn’t think so.

So next time you see someone super famous out and about, leave them alone.

Posted in career, Friendship, Music, Success

“I Believe That I Can Make You Scream”

I’m filling out a form for a mentorship program in Nashville.

One of the questions for the  form has is “What is your definition of success?”

And I thought about it really hard, because everyone has a different definition of what it means to be happy. As I’m writing it, I’m not actually sure what I truly think about it. Because everyday is different. Everyday I wake up wondering what the hell am I doing, wondering what will the day bring me, what will I do today.

Today, my definition of success would be to be laying next to my best friend. I’ve known her since I was two weeks old. What would I be doing with her, besides celebrating her birthday.Probably talking about our families,friends, boys and life. It’s so easy to be around her, I am inspired by her everyday.

I really hate the fact that I will not be there for her birthday, but I’m here trying to make my life happy and successful.

Posted in career, Music

Balance of Life

There’s always highs and lows in everyone’s life.

And it’s not different when you work in music.

How I explain it to people, is there is no guarantee that I will job tomorrow. There’s no guarantee, that I will ever make it. There’s no guarantee whether or not anything I do is ever worth it.

Because entertainment is highly demanding and stressful, and everyone wants in.
But what they don’t realize is, it is not a glamorous life style at all. It’s not. The people that make it, are the ones that are passionate about what they do.

That’s why we do, what we do. We do it for the fans, for our souls, for the music. Sometimes it does get rough, it’s just a matter of whether how much you want it and how much you are willing to fight for it. Fight for what you want and for the music.

What goes up, must come down. It’s just a matter of balancing the ups and downs.

Posted in Music

My Month So Far

Wow! Where do I begin! These past couple of months have been absolutely insane!

I guess I’ll start from mid June: CMA Fest

I ended up working a promotion for CMA Fest, not the gig I necessarily wanted but it does work and pays really good money.

Side note about working promotions: The reason why I do them, it’s a super easy way to make money, meet people and it normally gets you access to the things that are going on! #workingfestivals

But seriously, CMA Fest is just like SXSW. There’s something going on at every corner of the city, and just like SXSW, you can get in to see free shows. Now that I know what I know this year, I know how to go about it next year. But I secretly hope I can work Bonnaroo next year. #yesplease

End of June: Summerfest

As I the month comes to an end, I drive up with my momma to go to Milwaukee. Yes, I’m in Milwaukee as I’m typing this. Because I worked my 4th year at Summerfest: World’s Largest Music Festival.

Hanging with my Summerfest team, I had a blast. I always do! I told all my supervisors, for as long as I can, I will work Summerfest.

Normally, I don’t like to write about artists that I’ve worked with, because I think it’s biased. But check out Gary Clark Jr. and X Ambassadors if you haven’t already!

So right now, I’m technically freelancing, still working towards my dream job, but you never what is to come in the next couple of months!